“Changing the world starts from a change within.”
I just can't; the depression roller coaster
Depression and anxiety are those dreaded and never ending life struggles for those who deal with them. I wish I could say that once you're out of the woods after getting some help, you'll never have to take a step back in. I wish I could say that everything once you're out of those woods is all sunshine and rainbows. However, it's not that simple.
Your heart won’t stop coming after me
11 years ago when I was just 19 years old, I was at my very lowest in my anxiety and depression. So low that I attempted suicide. In my darkness I thought I would make everyone else's lives better by leaving this earth. I felt worthless as I took handfuls of pills of many kinds. In the midst of my total darkness I got a phone call from a friend.
Meet me in my pain
Let's be real. When struggling with anxiety and depression, it isn't always full blown. Yes, some short or long periods of time it is. In those times of pain, people don't really know how to react.
The darkness of depression
Coming from someone who struggles with depression, we don't really open up about the things we think or feel. It's tough to be honest with others, because the thoughts that circle around in our heads can be pretty dark. I have even been torn on whether to post this and share my journey this much with the world, so why am I deciding to be open about it now?