Nobody knows you better than your kids
I came to this conclusion in the car the other day while running errands with my girls. Singing obnoxiously and having a dance like nobody's watching attitude. Think about it. We all have levels of how much we show to each person in our lives. While we do it without even thinking about it, we all know the different stages of openness.
To the new friend or new significant other, we are our most timid selves. We don't know who they are or how they will react to anything. We want to be our most put together self. We hold back sarcasm and weird jokes. We do our best to show our best! To the acquaintance we've known for however long, we show just enough to get by without them truly knowing us. Answering "how are you doing?" with a "pretty good just busy" type thing. We still don't think this is the right place or right time to show our full selves.
To the long time friend or long time significant other we show everything, at least we think we do! They know the crazy, they know the weird sarcasm, they know you're a low key rapper even. We love these people and they see it all, or so I thought. Your kids though.....they see it alllllll! They will not only hear you sing or rap, they see your slightly crazy dance moves. They will not just see you cry, they will see your full blown meltdowns. They won't just hear a your most elegant words, but the strange awkward statements. They will not just see some weird mannerisms, they will see the less than appropriate ones.
You see, I realized the good in this. There's good in your kids knowing and seeing everything, because you know they love you unconditionally!!
No matter how much of a mess you are mentally, no matter how much makeup you have smeared on your face from days before, no matter how weird or awkward you are, they love you!!! And that is a special gift!