Dear Daughter, Please Forgive Me
Baby girl,
As I approach the day it's time to tell you where you came from, the day I tell you that the daddy you thought was your own flesh and blood, is in fact your daddy through love, I pray God gives you understanding and grace for your mommy. As I begin to open up to you as to just how imperfect I am, may your love for me stay the same.
The Beginning
Years ago when I found out I was pregnant with you, I was at a point in my life where I wasn't planning to have children yet. However, you will eventually learn that God can take our mishaps and turn them into something beautiful. His plan may not have been for me to become a mom at age 22, but he used you to change my life for the best!
I felt as though I was going to mess up your life, like I was going to somehow rob you of a perfect family. I was concerned with the thought of not being sufficient enough for you on my own. God revealed to me quickly that he had a special plan for you, and I am full of joy that plan included me.
The Lord had the perfect combination of family chosen uniquely for you. A daddy who understands what it's like to grow up in a unique family dynamic. A daddy who immediately fell in love with you and wanted to choose to be your daddy forever. He also hand picked the perfect sisters for you. Ones that all look to you with admiration and fight over who gets to be your best friend. He also chose me to be your mommy. A mom who loves you fiercely!
Wonderfully Made
You, my princess, were beautifully and wonderfully made! You were my handcrafted gift sent from heaven, wrapped in the sweetest little smile and chubby cheeks.
God knew what I needed in my time of despair and angst, and it was you! I have many times messed up in my life. Times where I have done things I am not proud of. As you grow and blossom into the beautiful girl that you are, I pray that you see that Christ can take our mistakes and turn them into something beautiful.
No matter what you do in life, no matter how bad you think you have screwed up from time to time, remember that God will always forgive you, just as he forgave me. More importantly, remember that there is nothing you can do to lose His love for you.
I Love You
You may feel as though I have let you down or robbed you from the perfect childhood. You may be upset with me over the timing of when I tell you about everything, or how I worded something. You may even build up a bitterness or anger towards me.
Baby girl, I pray you can forgive me. I pray on those rough days where your feelings are big and your feelings aren't the nicest towards me, that choose to love me anyways.
I pray that you always feel loved by your mommy, by your daddy, by your sissies, and most importantly by your Heavenly Father who has chosen YOU from the very beginning of time. You are extremely loved forever and always!
